second thoughts

when i started making photographs, i thought that was my thing. everyone has a thing, and photography was my thing. julie paints, nif is a printmaker, dwayne makes music. i don't know how i didn't see that i was falling into the human habit of defining and labeling or rather satisfying that need. now i believe photography is not my thing. don't get me wrong. i love photography. i will still make photographs and objects with photographic images, but i don't think photography is my thing. i'm not a natural at it. i'm not a great photographer, but i can make interesting photos if i work at it, and i can get better at it as with anything. that's not even the point. i don't really know what my thing is or if i will ever have a thing. it's a little scary but liberating to realize this. i do know that i like to make things and think about them and why i make them or would want to.