fodder for art

fodder for art
Originally uploaded by bluepupae.

for years i have suffered through allergies. every year, beginning as early as january and for 3-5 months, my nose runs and itches and is prone to sinus infections, my eyes water and itch and turn red, my face breaks out, i sneeze, can't breath, am miserable whilst going through countless tissues and have varying degrees of success doing the usual things.

i've tried a number of remedies, including benadryl which makes me way too sleepy and is only a last resort, claritin, allegra, homeopathic pills, bee pollen and local honey, none of which completely wipes out the allergy symptoms without wiping me out, and some do both. i've tried plugging my nose with tissue, but that is only temporary relief until it becomes snot-soaked or gets sent flying across the room by an explosive sneeze.

the thought of visiting rome strikes fear in my heart because the one time i was there, i had the worst allergy attack which ended up with me developing a sinus infection and bronchitis by the end of my vacation. i barely remember the coliseum through tears and medication. apparently, i'm allergic to antiquity or at least the dust that goes with it.

this year has not been so bad compared to others. i've lived in the same place for some time, and last year, which was worse, i ate a lot of bee pollen. i still have days though when i can't take it, and rather than attempt to be functional, i dose myself with benadryl and call it a day. so i've been thinking about doing the only thing i can, make some art out of it. i have to do something with the piles of snotty tissues. they would be better admired in a museum collection than a landfill, i think.